I know the holidays are coming up, so what the heck is wrong with me?! I am having a serious lack of motivation to get into the holiday spirit. Don't get me wrong! I am completely, 100% thrilled, ecstatic, and enamored to be going home for the holidays this year. BOTH of the major holidays! That hasn't happened in a long while. It's just, I have a lack of enthusiasm in getting our family involved in our typical traditions. (Halloween almost entirely escaped me--besides, a pumpkin and some colorful corn husks, we didn't do one bit of decorating. NOR did we do our usual chili in pumpkin bowl dinner--it didn't help, of course, that Camden ended up with a 104 degree fever on Halloween which prevented our trick-or-treating escapades and some dressing up in costume). Why has this happened?! How can I get into the spirit?
Let me explain a few of my ideas before you shower me with yours (and please do). First of all, we are potentially moving by the end of this year. Potential is a stretch, as thus far, we have not nailed down a job following graduation. So whether or not we are moving is pending. Who wants to get out boxes of decor (even if that is a minimal amount) only to pack it all back up before the season ends and move on? Don't pick me...
The second, and probably the reason most directly affecting my current problem, is in actuality, related to reason numero uno. We do not have money with which to purchase gifts. Okay, okay. Some people's response would be...what happened to your 3-6 month emergency money supply?! My response to that would be that it went out the window about 4 years ago when we were paying $6000 every four months for both of us to finish school. Finish I have, finish Devin will, and hopefully, the emergency supply will come with a job (don't get me on that again :O). But it's been pretty much non-existent (plus less) while Devin works only 16 hours at the Carpenter shop weekly, and I am trying to stay at home/earn money at home, to recover what cannot be earned monetarily by following BYU's 20 hour work week policy to cover our monthly bills. I am currently in the market for additional ideas.
Third, perhaps it has been my failing health this past year? Am I simplifying out of necessity? I seriously have the energy to only do the necessary things. Maybe those other things just really aren't necessary after all? But I'd like to create sweet memories for my children--if it's not possible to permanently ingrain it in their minds at young ages, at least in pictures.
Now that I'm off my soap box (or am I??), realize, I know that it's always a possibility to make gifts. I, however, have no idea what I can make for Devin, Camden, my family (3 siblings, two parents, 2 sets of grandparents), and my husband's family (7 siblings, 2 parents, a niece, and 1 set of grandparents) on a $30 budget. And some of that is probably money we don't actually have, but I am fooling myself into believing we do so I don't feel like a complete and utter failure. You see, gift giving is BY FAR one of my favorite things to do. There is literally an emptiness inside of me since we've been married because of my lack of funds to support this lovely hobby. Does anyone out there have any ideas? I am really needing something to get me into the holiday spirit*, and searching for gifts to give to my beloved family is a great contributor to making that happen. I just LOVE seeing faces light up!
*(I'm talking excitement wise, NOT spiritually-minded, as Christ will always be the main focus of our Christmas experience and I know it will still be a wonderful Christmas without gifts because of the real celebration of that day)
My family is just so very generous to us all throughout the year. It would be wonderful to attempt to make up at least 1% of that generosity!
P.S. Making my own decorations to get in the spirit is likely not an option (including garage sales--because my mother-in-law does that for us for Camden's clothes--which I say "THANK YOU, THANK YOU" repeatedly because it literally saves us!), due to lack of funds. Unless, of course, you know of places I can pick up FREE DIY Thanksgiving/Christmas decor items :O) Which, by the way, I would love dearly; especially if it's something Camden and I could do together while Devin's at school/work.
And any and all prayers are appreciated as we are in the limbo process of Devin's future career, and will be out of a job come the end of December (due to the fact that Devin's job is a student one--in which he needs to be a STUDENT to keep). I'm not stressing....yet :O)
Love to you all! And here's to hoping your holiday spirit is coming more easily to you this year than it is to me! It can certainly make for a light, more joyful season if it so occurs!