I'm sure all of you are quite inquisitive as to what the title means here but do not fear--or get excited. I thought I had some pictures to put up from last night of our little boy, but turns out it was only a dream...a very REAL dream! It almost scared me. Here's what it was about:
One day, Devin and I were going to the store and he said "wait a minute, let me go get the baby." I was like "what baby?!" I could have sworn maybe we were watching someone else's kid, but then, to my surprise, it was our very own son. He was an eight month year old at this point. Come to find out, we had had a child, but for some reason in the first few weeks of his birth, I completely forgot about him! (ha ha, I'm laughing in my head right now...cuz like this would really happen to anyone). I guess my brain had gone on auto-pilot. I breast-fed him every time he needed it, but didn't pay any attention to him other than that....weird thing is, I NEVER remembered breast-feeding him.
Ok so, on this day that I realized we had a child, Devin was getting really frustrated because after I realized he was EIGHT MONTHS, I KNEW we needed to start getting him on solid foods (I'm pretty sure this dream came about because Shelise is getting Hudson on solids); so, I began to go shopping to get him solid foods (they had some CRAZY cool foods in this dream) but I couldn't find any of the cereal. We went to two stores to find the cereal and finally I just ended up getting some cream-of-wheat type of substance. The other problem is that Devin had never gone and bought our boy a car seat. He got some hand-me-down one from SOMEWHERE...except it was one of those booster seats for a five year old, NOT an eight month old. We went to another store to buy a car seat but Devin was not happy about it because he didn't want to spend the money, and he said he had been taking care of the boy just fine up until this point without me. I am not entirely sure how that happened, because I am quite sure he has No idea what to do with a child ALL of the time (even though he is pretty good with children). Anyway, I had just been on auto-pilot with this kid. After going to talk to a therapist, we realized that the reason I had done this was because in the first three weeks of his birth, he didn't interact or socialize with me at all, so something in my brain told me he wasn't real. (lol again) He wasn't really very social at this point either, because he hadn't really ever interacted with anyone (we were living in Provo, not around our family). It was quite a weird dream, and very real...so kinda scary!
These kinds of things sometimes make me wonder about our reality. I took a philosophy class long ago where we discussed our perceptions of reality and how we know they are real. I guess this just made me think of it all over again. Anyway, sorry no pics! I really thought I was going to be able to put some up of our cute little boy! :O)
Soon, I will put some pics up of our new apartment. It is so big compared to our other one that I don't think I would ever be able to fill it! The kitchen is HUGE (my mom laughs at this, because it really isn't...it's just that our other one is SOOO tiny!) Anyway, I'll get those up soon!